Excuses. Updates. Failure. New plan!

Hi there!

First of all, if I do have any constant readers, i'm sorry if i haven't updated for more than a month. Its because of University (surprise, surprise!). After our pinning ceremony we literally had boat loads of things to study for. exams, return demonstrations, practicals and reports. We were constantly, constantly racing against time! it was as if our lives were in fast forward and we were stuck in slow motion! enough of that. basically, I had very little time off and most of which were spent in bed, sleeping or being a nervous wreck.

Here's the low down on what has happened to my life to this day:
1. I finished my pinning ceremony (which wasnt perfect but it was nice to be part of the event, i guess.)

2. My dad came home from his work overseas! (he travels around the world for his work and comes home for a few months then goes back travelling again.)

3. I got a few things! Darcy, the ipad mini, which I love so dearly! and a new Casio watch and a few souvenir items from the countries my dad visited. 

4. It's finally summer vacation! (:

Failure. I just found out that I didn't make the cut to being a regular student next sem (still isnt yet confirmed but basing from my standing, it wont be a shocker.). meaning I wont get the complete set of units next sem which is a bummer and quite disappointing really, after all the things i've done to get good grades. but i guess it wasnt enough, I blame my procrastination! but yeah. i think this is a blessing in disguise because remembering last sem, it was like poison to me. The demanding schedule. constantly racing against time and constantly conceding defeat to it took a toll on me. the stress it just wasnt good for me anymore. and Besides, most of the fourth years said that fourth year is even more demanding. and i think I'd rather take this year slowly but surely. I dont want to be regular the first sem and be stretched to thin again and end up failing a subject that is a prerequisite of a subject for the 2nd semester that would just extend my stay for a year! so yeah. I'd rather extend a few months than a year.

Do more of what makes you happy. thats my new plan! and I've finally decided to do something that I've been wanting to do for months now! since, I wont be having summer class and I'm quite sure i'll have loads of free time next sem, i think i'll be able to maintain it. I'm not going to reveal what it is yet cause i'm still making the preparations, but when its ready i'm gonna share it with you, i promise!

Expect more regular updates from me these coming months! thank you!

with love, 
dani (: x

Static

It's been 5 weeks since school resumed from Christmas break and of those 39 days, 29 of those days were packed with exams. Basically, we only had Sundays off--technically. and not even those Sundays were used up for pure relaxation cause it was used to study for the exams, so yeah. basically, My days along with other PT students (3rd-5th years) were used for reading, desperately trying to absorb as much knowledge as our brains would allow. and that scenario-- 39 days filled with exams, could greatly affect you. Your personality, your confidence, your sanity! and I for one was greatly affected. I genuinely think I lost a part of myself because of it. but tonight, tonight is different. Its a free night. No exam to worry about (atleast not until monday) . Just me, my laptop, wifi and my bed. I've missed these nights; nights where I need not worry about anything other than whether or not my wifi connection is fast enough. I know this seems trivial. to you it maybe. but to me and other PT (3rd-5th yr) students, these kinds of night are huge blessings. are the nights that somehow keep us sane (well, atleast for me). These nights let us slow down a little bit. take a breath. and just enjoy the static. 

These nights are always welcomed (with arms wide open and confetti) into my schedule. They keep us --me sane. and some what, thankful. and tonight, I feel really thankful and (proud to say this) have gained back a sizeable amount of the sanity I've lost! haha

(: x

dani

P.S. Dont get me wrong, I'm not complaining, this course is something I want but sometimes, it just gets so hard and challenging that it really takes a toll on you.

I am a Physical Therapist.

Hi there. so, I havent been posting lately. Cause I've been really really busy with school. It was midterms-- it still is actually, but today I choose to give myself a break. So, Last week was another week packed with exams and alas, I was feeling defeated, tired and depressed. and well, let's just say, I've had better days than the ones that I'm living right now. but, I'm not complaining. I realized that all these-the hardship, torture that we have to go through will eventually pay off. and technically, this is what I came to uni for. Education. Knowledge. and I got it but in a much bigger dosage than I expected. but you cant get everything you want right? right.

Midterms literally sucked the life out of me. I've been really really depressed and quite frankly, for a moment, I already gave up. But something changed today. Something lit the dying fire inside of me. it's this thin piece of silver. It's my name plate. I've invested so much blood, sweat, tears and even a sizeable percentage of my sanity to get this. and I've realized that if I gave up now, all the things I've invested in this course would all go to waste. to oblivion. wasted. and ultimately, my dream would not actualize.

I've spent so many nights working my ass off to get this. and when I finally saw it, my heart welled up. it was so heart warming for 3 years, I've been looking forward to actually having my own name plate, and today, I finally have one. (not sure if I cant wear it before the actually pinning and candle lighting ceremony but you get the picture). 

This week might not have been the best week of my life but it sure ended with an amazing and inspiring ending! (: 

(: x

dani

PT Life milestone Part 1. (:

Hi there!
So.. This evening, we had voice practice (I guess) for our pinning and candle lighting ceremony as Physical Therapy Students. Basically its a right of passage to becoming a Physical Therapy Student. but as we were practicing, I was filled with emotions. Mixed Emotions. I was a mix of happiness, doubtful and a little sadness. So i was pretty distracted-- as usual.

I was happy cause I was one of those that made the cut--barely though, but I did. I made the cut. I guess, it kinda is a big deal(?) I suppose, making the cut on the count that almost more than half of our batch didnt make it. but for some reason I felt that I could have done better, I could do better with my performance but! I get distracted way too easily and I seem to never run out of things to be obsessed with! BigBang, One Direction, JacksGap, The Script, John Green books, etc. So yeah. rambling again. sorry. haha. 

I was doubtful cause I'm still quite torn about this course. cause honestly, Its sucking the life out of me. Living 4 straight weeks filled with exams can take a toll on your morale. But still, I'm not giving  up. I cant just let my dreams of becoming a PT to the hot football players of europe (haha! cheeky!) go because the road is getting a little rockier and dimmer. but seriously, I've always wanted to help people survive and get back up from the tragedies in their lives and PT is the perfect profession for that. You help them get back on their feet (can be literal of figuratively) help them get back what they lost in a tragic event in their life. And make a difference in their lives. Making a difference in other people's lives is what makes a life count. well, atleast in my opinion.

I was sad too cause we were only 19 during the practice out of the 41 of us that entered junior year this first semester. somehow, somewhat, Something was missing. People that I've shared the same troubles, heartaches and headaches werent there. I thought they deserved to take part in this ceremony with us. but oh well, rules are rules. 

So yeah. It's already midnight here and i've got yet another exam tomorrow (surprise ,surprise!) and I'm quite sleepy already so.. I guess this is where I bid yo Good bye. (:

(: x

dani

PS. I'm sharing this quote below from Bastille's song (i think its just a cover, i could be wrong). that was just so relevant to me.

Get on your feet and stop making tired excuses.

Listen to the song! its awesome and real.(: