Excuses. Updates. Failure. New plan!

Hi there!

First of all, if I do have any constant readers, i'm sorry if i haven't updated for more than a month. Its because of University (surprise, surprise!). After our pinning ceremony we literally had boat loads of things to study for. exams, return demonstrations, practicals and reports. We were constantly, constantly racing against time! it was as if our lives were in fast forward and we were stuck in slow motion! enough of that. basically, I had very little time off and most of which were spent in bed, sleeping or being a nervous wreck.

Here's the low down on what has happened to my life to this day:
1. I finished my pinning ceremony (which wasnt perfect but it was nice to be part of the event, i guess.)

2. My dad came home from his work overseas! (he travels around the world for his work and comes home for a few months then goes back travelling again.)

3. I got a few things! Darcy, the ipad mini, which I love so dearly! and a new Casio watch and a few souvenir items from the countries my dad visited. 

4. It's finally summer vacation! (:

Failure. I just found out that I didn't make the cut to being a regular student next sem (still isnt yet confirmed but basing from my standing, it wont be a shocker.). meaning I wont get the complete set of units next sem which is a bummer and quite disappointing really, after all the things i've done to get good grades. but i guess it wasnt enough, I blame my procrastination! but yeah. i think this is a blessing in disguise because remembering last sem, it was like poison to me. The demanding schedule. constantly racing against time and constantly conceding defeat to it took a toll on me. the stress it just wasnt good for me anymore. and Besides, most of the fourth years said that fourth year is even more demanding. and i think I'd rather take this year slowly but surely. I dont want to be regular the first sem and be stretched to thin again and end up failing a subject that is a prerequisite of a subject for the 2nd semester that would just extend my stay for a year! so yeah. I'd rather extend a few months than a year.

Do more of what makes you happy. thats my new plan! and I've finally decided to do something that I've been wanting to do for months now! since, I wont be having summer class and I'm quite sure i'll have loads of free time next sem, i think i'll be able to maintain it. I'm not going to reveal what it is yet cause i'm still making the preparations, but when its ready i'm gonna share it with you, i promise!

Expect more regular updates from me these coming months! thank you!

with love, 
dani (: x

Static

It's been 5 weeks since school resumed from Christmas break and of those 39 days, 29 of those days were packed with exams. Basically, we only had Sundays off--technically. and not even those Sundays were used up for pure relaxation cause it was used to study for the exams, so yeah. basically, My days along with other PT students (3rd-5th years) were used for reading, desperately trying to absorb as much knowledge as our brains would allow. and that scenario-- 39 days filled with exams, could greatly affect you. Your personality, your confidence, your sanity! and I for one was greatly affected. I genuinely think I lost a part of myself because of it. but tonight, tonight is different. Its a free night. No exam to worry about (atleast not until monday) . Just me, my laptop, wifi and my bed. I've missed these nights; nights where I need not worry about anything other than whether or not my wifi connection is fast enough. I know this seems trivial. to you it maybe. but to me and other PT (3rd-5th yr) students, these kinds of night are huge blessings. are the nights that somehow keep us sane (well, atleast for me). These nights let us slow down a little bit. take a breath. and just enjoy the static. 

These nights are always welcomed (with arms wide open and confetti) into my schedule. They keep us --me sane. and some what, thankful. and tonight, I feel really thankful and (proud to say this) have gained back a sizeable amount of the sanity I've lost! haha

(: x

dani

P.S. Dont get me wrong, I'm not complaining, this course is something I want but sometimes, it just gets so hard and challenging that it really takes a toll on you.

Oh, the pains of being a PT student.

Look at this book. like seriously. look at it. It's like 400 pages. thats our coverage for our Unit exam tomorrow. Unit. freaking. Exam. It's not even a midterm exam just a unit exam for crying out loud. this is crazyyyy. Our teacher finished discussing the whole book in one meeting. ONE. MEETING. During the lecture I was basically curling up in a ball in the back of my mind cause I could not, for the life in me, retain everything he said during the lecture and I wasnt fast enough to take down notes either. :(

The upside is... today, was one of our kind-er days. We didnt have a written exam today. atleast, thats one out of our six class days. (and yeah, we have saturday classes! which starts a 7 am. bummer.) but we did have a return demonstration which went surprisingly well. which made me feel quite fulfilled in a way.

Anyway....So I'm planning to upload maybe a mix of the songs I like to listen to when I study so yeah. Please do visit. and if ever there is anyone reading my post, comments are welcome. like srsly. COMMMMMMEEEEENT! haha. 

(: x

dani